♥

“Find the slope of the line 2x-3y+6=0″.

How will anyone ever find a use for that in their entire life besides being a maths teacher…?
I wanna go into medicine like, but… flipping hell, I REALLY don’t need a lot of the stuff I have to study.. so I find the leaving cert pretty feckin’ useless. Like you have to do a third language to get into universities. If I get it, I won’t have to treat french people, most likely…

“Bonjour, j’ai un peu de mal nouvelles… Tu es séropositif. Mais dans l’autre main, c’est bonne que j’ai etudier le francais pour mon Leaving Cert!”
http://translate.google.com/ <–Is that like.. demeaning to put that there? Pfft probably… RETARDS, ALL OF YIS >=D

I’m starting to dislike french. I thought I was good at it… Enough to hold a conversation.. But noooo. There’s French and honours Leaving Cert French. Talking with French people is way easier than the latter. =/ Maybe it’s just cos they don’t wanna tell you you’re crap

ANYWAY…..
Actually, I didn’t really have a point. I just came here to bitch about homework in a slightly intelligent sounding way. =/

Something in this room smells kinda like cheese…
…What the hell? Shut up, Tegan.

Well, I need to go find verify if a certain point belongs to a certain line. (Verify implies they already know. Why get me to do it again? Obsessive Compulsive bastaaddzz.)

Goodnight.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4-94JhLEiN0
This made me cry! Yea, how pathetic am i? :’)

Lovages.
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It’s been a fun mid term. Not what I expected but fun, nonetheless.. My to do list was as follows:

• Find a job.
• Clean…
• Study. A LOT.
• Write a science essay.
• Write an art essay.
• Write notes.
• Write more notes…
• Notes, notes, notes…

Kaaay, I didn’t really manage to do any of  that… But I did manage to help write and record a song then make a video for it. That’ll do.

Soo.. I’ve been thinking about how situations change really dramatically… you just see them coming like a car crash in slow mo, and theres nothing you can do about it. Like when you feel a flu coming on and you think “Oohhh shit” and you know you can’t stop it but you wish you’d just fecking get it over with.

Calm before the storm… There’s drama a comin’. ¬_¬
There’s too many people not talking to eachother. And… Ugh. Too much tension for meeee. The world would be a better place if it was socially acceptable to tell people when they’re being a right arse, right there and then.

In other news. I will be phone-less as of monday.
I am utterly heartbroken. </3

Aaaand…. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_f-DzVEO7fU
I actually love him. =)

x

Ps.
“I am 99.999999999999% sure he doesn’t feel the same.”
“…and if you’re 99.9999999999% wrong?”

Turns out… It’d be 100% awesome.
x

Awesome night last night to top an awesome week with awesome friends… And I realised a lot in the past week.

• There’s a couple of people I just don’t need. All I can say is, Whatever.
• People’ll stare. They can stare away, it’s just time wasted for them watching me have fun. =)
• I am a lucky, lucky girl.
• My ability to distinguish dreams from reality is slowly deteriorating.
• I think that my heart shall soon burst with love for Joshua Radin. ♥
• Real friends can bring you out of anything.

And I have a really good feeling about the rest of the year. Lots of things to look forward to… Youth group’s starting back, I’m vice pres of the school now (The responsibility of president and half the charisma needed ), Concerts, lots of people to catch up on, amongst other things. All with amazing friends, and not a care in the world about people who don’t matter. It’s looking up. ♥

Wow. I love him. ♥♥♥
(Yea I know. It’s an obsession now. )

“Love love love, wherever we go.”

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I’m watching Big Fish right now.
So this guy was welcomed into this beautiful town, Spectre, where everyone and everything was perfect. But he wanted something more. He had this desire for adventure. Not having things handed to him, even if that meant hurting sometimes. He just couldn’t sit still knowing there was things he could be apart of.
He said: “I’ll come back some day. I promise. When I’m really supposed to.”

Just like me.

But this isn’t a movie. Perfect towns don’t always stay perfect. Amazing situations turn sour. Some people aren’t as beautiful as in the movies.
Sometimes, life just doesn’t wait for you to be ready for it. Things change. Some people come and go. Things rarely turn out the way the way you dream about.

But, I just wanna say… My friends are a Spectre. Beautiful people that are and hopefully always will be my beautiful place to fall back on. I am an idiot, but they’re always there when I freak out. And they do so many lovely things to make me feel sane again and never stop reminding me they’ll always keep doing that. They’re my perfect little place to go. Life is still shit sometimes. But you lovely people make it bearable.

“There’s a time when you need to fight and a time when you need to accept that your destiny’s lost, the ship has sailed and that only a fool will continue. The truth is I’ve always been a fool.”

x

Ps. Adam, you are flipping amazing.
“You are beautiful, Tegan. Inside and out. And the sun doesnt deserve to shine on you, nor rise, for you are more spectacular and bright than it will ever be.”

A friend showed me this site, www.givesmehope.com, and basically it’s just people telling of reminders they got of how lovely the world can be.

Yesterday, I got one of the best presents ever.
I was feeling miserable,  not having a nice day, walking home in the rain, my feet completely soaked, and I walked in and saw a card on the counter, adressed to me. When I opened it, all it said was “I love you, Tegan!” in cut out letters from a magazine.

I love when you get your own little reminder of how lovely the world can be. =]

(And Still don’t know who it was from, but if you’re reading this, thankyou for brightening my day). 

xxx

“Although the world is full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it” – Helen Keller.

No more letting myself feel bad.
No more commitment to bad people.
No more worrying about what people that don’t matter think.
No more depressing blogs. (They’re aaaall gone. )

That’s it.
I’m done… ♥

x

For not telling me what I already know I should or shouldn’t do.
For not judging my pathetic self.
For not telling me what I wanna hear, but telling me how it is  - That life is shit sometimes.
For being there when life is shit.
For helping me smile for the first time in days.
For listening.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H0MG-vDwrU4
See? Told you I do this too.

(I hate blogs talking to one person, but basically, I have an amazing friend and we bend the rules for amazing friends.)

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I’ve become a pessimistic grump lately. I feel like one of those people you see having nervous breakdowns and that get upset at tiny things. Like Tom and Jerry! Flipping hell, I was watching it one day and found myself thinking, “What the HELL?! You can’t get hit over the head with a frying pan, and get a lump that big that fast… let alone, have it dissapear within a few minutes! And how can a mouse lift a frying pan in the first place?!”

You know what? I wish I could see past the absolute impossibility of the antics of childrens cartoons. Why can’t I embrace the hilarity of repeatitive chase scenes? Or their sheer slapstick value? Because I have no life, that’s why.

I was watching my dog yesterday, he was playing with a rubber chew toy, and he was thrashing about on his back with it in his mouth, as if the thing was dramatically pinning him to the ground.. That toy was €4.95 in Tesco. I wish I could be as utterly enthralled by anything as much as my dog is by a piece of rubber. But no, I have to bitch about everything.

Ugh. I’m gonna go sulk for a bit cos i’m that much of a grouch.

x

Going to french college. =/

Lovage to all!

x

I looked at my stats today. Apparently people actually read this thing. (Could you like… Comment or something? So I don’t feel paranoid? Cos I dunno who the hell reads this =P)

French college on Thursday. A very strict one at that. Not looking forward to it one bit.
Apparently there’s people in the showers and everything, just checking to see if you speak anything but french. I will snap.
No music,  no english, no privacy, no phone, no normal conversations due to the no english part. I’m going to hurt someone.

Urgh. Whatever.
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(Play. Listen. Repeat until 3 am.) =/

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